I am not even sure what to type here. My thoughts all are all over, inside up, outside down and definitely right side out.....dang.
Happy, sad, wistful, hopeful, anxious....and that's just for the time it took to type that.
You know what I wish I could do today...I wish I could fly above the chaos, the traffic, the stuck vehicles, the dizzying shoppers, the children playing, etc....I could fly unseen and unnoticed (remember my "entry" issues!)...and just watch, listen, observe and learn. I wonder what I would hear, see, etc?
It goregeously sunny, not very warm, but the warmest it's been all week...and it's like God is saying...."See? I brought you to a complete standstill with my partner, mother nature, and now I am giving you a warm up...a release from the frozen state (literally) you have been in , the holding pattern you have been forced to live in, and what have you learned from having to be inside, non-mobile and almost.....still?
What have we learned? What have I learned?
Let me think about that a bit....and when I have it word-ready, I'll be back.....
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Friday, February 4, 2011
Oh, wow....
This is my first entry...is that what we call it here? An entry? I've just made an entry.
That has never been easy for me. To make an entry...
From birth...I was late. 7 days, I think the story goes. So, even in the womb, I was shy about "making an entry" to God's world.
Not much has changed all these years later....I still prefer to "enter" quietly, in a group, behind someone else, and in any way unremarkable.
Perhaps, that has been my fortune here...I have quietly entered this "blogging" realm....amidst many, many others...and not unlike them in a hugely noteable way.
But, it IS MY entry...mine. I want to own it and be proud of it and personalize it as only I can.
So, off and running we go....
I want to "blog" because I think it will be good therapy for me and a great place to have a record of my reckless and/or ordered thoughts...I am not good at writing things down...you know, journaling. When that was all the rage...I once again thought....'Hmmmm...sounds so cool and helpful and all that....but when? I am busy living those words out and I can't add journaling to my already overloaded list of multitaskable items!!'
But I also asked myself....if only for a second..."Why can't you do that, too?"
Blogging had not been dreamed up yet, or at least not made into a virtual reality....but now it has.
It's time has come and maybe this is just the right time for me, too.
Time for my entry....here I am....(whispered).....
That has never been easy for me. To make an entry...
From birth...I was late. 7 days, I think the story goes. So, even in the womb, I was shy about "making an entry" to God's world.
Not much has changed all these years later....I still prefer to "enter" quietly, in a group, behind someone else, and in any way unremarkable.
Perhaps, that has been my fortune here...I have quietly entered this "blogging" realm....amidst many, many others...and not unlike them in a hugely noteable way.
But, it IS MY entry...mine. I want to own it and be proud of it and personalize it as only I can.
So, off and running we go....
I want to "blog" because I think it will be good therapy for me and a great place to have a record of my reckless and/or ordered thoughts...I am not good at writing things down...you know, journaling. When that was all the rage...I once again thought....'Hmmmm...sounds so cool and helpful and all that....but when? I am busy living those words out and I can't add journaling to my already overloaded list of multitaskable items!!'
But I also asked myself....if only for a second..."Why can't you do that, too?"
Blogging had not been dreamed up yet, or at least not made into a virtual reality....but now it has.
It's time has come and maybe this is just the right time for me, too.
Time for my entry....here I am....(whispered).....
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